What made you stop being an addict?

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

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So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Read that again ☝️

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

Should I have left it alone and kept quiet? I came out as gay to my adult kids last week. Age 61 married 15 years, divorced for 20. I feel so guilty for ruining their lives by living a lie.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

How can you know if they are your twin flame and not limerence or obsession?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Why do Democrats never produce a good argument for why Trump was a bad president?

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

What is an easy way to get your driver's license?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Don't you think Democrats are so full of it stool softener and an enema couldn't help them?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Can we state Alia Bhatt as the most versatile actress in Bollywood now?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

What do you think about a sister's love?

And I can also talk to them now.

I did it in my administrator's office.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Why did Cartman love Heidi purely with heart, her being the first one he ever did, but then one day Butters tells him that all women are manipulative and then he began to believe that she was a bad person and pretended to be a victim?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

How can I navigate a romantic relationship as a trans person, and what are some common challenges that I might face?

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

This was February 2019.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Why can't my adopted sister accept she is not part of my family because she isn't related? Why can't she stop calling my parents mum and dad?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

Just keep trying

Why do people say African Americans act the way they do because they're poor, when the ones with money act the same?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

Is it possible that my TF caused a kundalini awakening in another person? He is famous because He is a singer. We have not met physically yet, but I have gone through kundalini awakening and DNOTS and their ongoing. I have also had soul recognition so I know for sure that He is my Divine Counterpart and I do not have any doubts about it. But it is indeed perplexing that somebody had an awakening at the physical level because of Him. Is it a test for me? I have a mixture of feelings. On one hand I marvelled at Him and empathised with the person and on the other, I doubt if this just a test for me. I would appreciate your pov. Thank you for much.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.